Nothin' But Good News

Today I was able to get together with my mentor, Anne, for the first time in about a month and a half. She's been going through a lot, health-wise, but is bouncing back. What a blessing as she had us all scared there for a moment! As we were talking, catching up on what's been going on in our lives, it really stood out...His amazingness (did I just make that word up? Lol) let me explain. Earlier today, I got in this rare (and I mean RARE) mood to deep clean my bedroom. As I was, I stumbled across an old notebook. See, I've been known to write many a letterd in my day, and I even write to God. This one was dated, like, the first of Nov. 2009. I remember that time last it was yesterday. In my letter to God, I spoke about my complete dislike of where I was working (telemarketing w/ druggies - sounds harsh but I would be at my desk and witness drug deals going down). That job was very difficult for me; 1) I didn't feel like I was bettering the world in anyway - in fact, I was an annoyance. 2) it wasn't even that beneficial for my family financially and 3) I just felt so lost there. And I didn't agree with what was going on. It was so sooo much. In my letter I spoke to God about this. And about my desire to have another child. Somewhere in the letter I mentioned that I feel like He is not there (ouch, can't believe I wrote that). I speak of my marriage, who I am/was, feeling overwhelmed, etc. WOW. That was an insane time in my life but guess what I realized after I reread that from 2 1/2 years ago? GOD IS THERE and He heard me. It was in that same week I got a job interview for a new job, a better job, and I accepted the job offer. It wasn't but 7 months later that I found out I was expecting Macie! And, the feeling of being overwhelmed and the cry for my marriage - well, those feelings went away. Of course marriage is and probably always will be a struggle but my husband and I are in such a better place now. Here's my thing. Did I seriously not realize how He answered my prayer til today? Have I really wasted so much time choosing to feel like I was all alone when in reality He was there along? WOW. So back to today and speaking with Anne, I had nothing but a praise report to give. God has truly blessed our efforts! In the beginning of February, Perry and I started a program called MoneyWise which pretty much teaches us how to be good stewards with God's money. Since February, we have been more cautious of our spending habits, created a budget, and prayed like mad. Sometimes it has felt like our prayers weren't being answered; that we were alone? The days felt like they were going by slowly, painfully slow. But now, just two months into it, God has blessed my husband with a MUCH better job. Its an 8 minute drive from our house, he gets more than 3 hours of sleep per night ( whoop, whoop!) and there's benefits! How a awesome is that?! But that's not all - FINALLY, we're ahead on bills, we're actually saving for things BEFORE we need 'em! For once I feel at peace in my heart about our finances and our future looks more hopeful than it did before! So again, God answered another prayer of mine, and though it felt trying amd difficult at the time, almost like there was no improvement so we might as well give up - that wasn't really the case at all! Wow! Anne was thrilled for us and I was thrilled to share the news! God is good. He really is. I'm learning so much about Him lately ....I am just so AMAZED!! :)