"Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering."
Above is the Truth that the Lord had spoken to me last Spring. I found it difficult to accept. Sometimes it is hard for me to accept that anything good could happen to me...
May 28th 2014- I went to Fargo to meet with my new endocrinologist. I knew I was overdue for an ultrasound. I knew we would be finding out whether or not cancer was wrecking havoc inside me. I was so nervous. But once again, ND doctors surprised me with their loving-kindness, personal care, and with being very forth-giving of all facts.
The doctor went over all my notes from previous doctors. We discussed all my concerns including sometimes feeling something in random spots of my neck, and swollen tonsils. We talked for close to an hour. She thoroughly checked my neck physically and felt nothing, she looked down my throat, again found nothing. She wanted to send me for an ultrasound, also have blood taken to check my thyroid levels to make sure I'm on a proper dose, and also check me for thyroglobulin tumor marker. She said ideally, there wouldn't be a marker or find anything via ultrasound. She was very hopeful. She also mentioned, she did not know why my Georgia doctor wanted me to have radioactive iodine. There was no cancer "in the margins", none in my lymph nodes. She said had I been under her care at the time, she would not have suggested that protocol. In that moment, two things became clear to me - once again, to some the love of money is more than a person's physical well being, and two, I'm so thankful I did not go through with the suggested radiation. So many people doubted me, so many people thought I was crazy. But now looked at what harm it would've caused, and it was totally unneeded.
I say unneeded because yesterday I got a phone call with the results. My thyroid levels were great (yay Nature-Throid!), there was no marker, and NO MASS FOUND from the ultrasound. She said see ya back at your 6 month check up. This was confirmation after confirmation of God's faithfulness. I was dependent on Him for guidance and in no way, shape, or form did I feel peace with radiation, but in trusting GOD and HIS MEDICINE CABINET. The only treatment I had received was an intensive 12 week detox program, and a diet/lifestyle change at home including more than food, but body/household products. By no means have I been perfect in ANY of these areas - but if only ya could've seen the way I ate and lived 5 years ago - BIG CHANGE!
The only thing now I need to pray/research about is she would like for me to do a scan in 6 months. A scan requiring me to take a low dose of radiation to detect if there is any cancer. If that scan comes back clear, then in their eyes I'm "cured" (her words). I receive enough radiation exposure just from every day life - no matter how low the risk she claims, I do not feel comfortable with this. But I have time to do my homework.
Right now I want to just focus on being free of cancer. In a way, I still feel shocked, and yet in another way I don't. I feel God has been speaking to be throughout this last year, telling me to trust in Him, telling me He has healed me, but I let my mind wander. And I've chosen fear over peace, my "knowledge" over His TRUTHS.
I remember in December 2012, a month before my surgery, a group of women from my church including my entire women's small group came together and placed their hands on me and prayed for my healing. I believe at the moment God healed me. Now whether He did in through surgery, or my detox, or just prayer, I don't know. But I credit Him for my healing and everything else as tools used. I am so thankful it was part of His plan for me to overcome this. I am so excited as I continue on in life with the hope of a future with my husband and children. I also want to learn more about health, and achieving the best optimal health in the most raw, natural, God-given way.