Sunday, January 22, 2017

Sweet Moments

January 12th, 2017
I was 15 years old when I had Zeke. 15 years old. I am not exaggerating when I say it is by the grace of God that both he and I survived those first early years.
Over the course of his life thus far, I have worried and stressed over if I was doing a good enough job. Was I being the best mom I could be? Was his life somewhat less than because he was born to teen?
I didn't want my son to become another statistic. I didn't want him to struggle with confidence, self-worth, or feeling loved.
Tonight he had to fill out a survey for the Big Brother program. This was something he had to do on his own, I took no part in it.
They asked questions about school, friends, relationships with parents and other adults. Once he finished filling it out, I did what any mom would do and I read his answers. 😉
Here, in his own writing, his responses to these questions BLOW MY MIND. Confidence, friends, feeling loved, feeling supported - all things positive and good, all these things I have been stressing over since pregnancy with him - y'all, my boy is happy. He knows he is loved. He knows he is smart. He has friends, he has healthy relationships with adults. And despite divorce, he knows his parents accept him and love him.
Zeke is good. And I am doing an alright job at being his mom. And reading that survey tonight was confirmation of it. God has been so good to take care of my boy (& the other two😉). We've come up against a lot but my boy is thriving. And for that I am so grateful to God. 

January 22nd, 2017

I asked Zeke what he thinks his spiritual gift is and before he could answer Macie chimed in, "Me! I am a gift from God." (That's her names meaning.) 


Thursday, January 19, 2017

Your Voice

What are you using your voice for?

We all have the ability to use our voice, our influence for something.

I am a seeker of all things truth. And sometimes my pursuits and beliefs rock the boat because they don't line up with popular belief. And that's okay. At this point I am used to (and okay with) standing alone.

As long as I have air in my lungs, I will use what influence I have to share truth, on whatever topic it may be on. 

Tuesday, January 3, 2017

A Sweet Reminder From A Faithful God

"Happiness isn't only about thinking in new ways, it's about acting in new ways."

"Happiness is a combination of God's help and taking a new approach, God does His part as we do our part. We need to start up new habits that lead to happiness. Don't look over the horizon for something good that might happen someday, somehow. Look at your life today, and do specific and simple things that can cause happiness to well up within you more."

- both quotes from Jud Whilhite

Sunday, January 1, 2017

The Plan

Alrighty folks, here we go! 

You will probably see a lot of this meme this year. It will serve as a reminder. I love this picture, over looking the Missouri River one September evening in 2015...hahaha.

Anyways. I have decided to give a go with a ketogenic diet. I can't even reminder when I first heard of this - it may have been a year or so (maybe more, maybe less) ago. It struck me as fascinating and made a lot of sense. It seems to have health benefits for those with hormone issues (hello, have you heard my story? lol). The ketogenic (keto for short) diet is a diet that is low-carb and high-fat. The reduction in carbs puts your body in a metabolic state called ketosis. 

Ketosis is a metabolic process that occurs when the body does not have enough glucose for energy. Stored fats are broken down for energy, resulting in a build-up of acids called ketones within the body. (<--- word for word taken from Google) Basically, your body uses stored fat for energy.

There are many benefits to a keto diet!

  • Cholesterol
  • Weight loss
  • Blood sugar
  • Energy
  • Hunger 
More indepth info on all the above here.

I intend on getting much (if not all) recipes from Healthful Pursuit. Her story really inspired me. She was having hormone issues, had low estrogen, doctors wanted to put her on birth control, but through this diet her estrogen levels have gone to normal. You all know I have Premature Ovarian Failure (POF) and my hope is still to achieve remission one day, so her story was way encouraging.

Speaking of POF, I have been back on hormone replacement therapy (HRT) for about a month now. Hot flashes have stopped, I am sleeping better and am feeling more like a normal person. Currently, the plan is to stick with HRT for the time being. The goal is still remission, but that will require really working on healing my body (hence, part of my drive for this year).

Real quick - back to Healthful Pursuit, another reason why I like her recipes is because they're more paleo style - meaning, no or little dairy. Though dairy is high in good fat, personally I feel like my body does better when I have little to no dairy in my diet. Which I am not thrived about because I love dairy. I am not saying I'm swearing it off forever, but for right now, I need to definitely cut back...a lot!

The goal is to stick with the keto diet through the end of March. Come that time, reevaluate and  go from there. 

Something else I'm going to implement with the keto diet is intermittent fasting. I really want to encourage you to look up the health benefits of this.

  • Intermittent fasting changes the function of cells, genes and hormones.
  • Intermittent fasting can help you lose weight and belly fat.
  • Intermittent fasting can reduce insulin resistance, lowering your risk of type 2 diabetes.
  • Intermittent fasting can reduce oxidative stress and inflammation in the body.
  • Intermittent fasting may be beneficial for heart health.
  • Intermittent fasting induces various cellular repair process.
  • Intermittent fasting may help prevent cancer.
  • Intermittent fasting is good for your brain.
  • Intermittent fasting may help prevent Alzheimer's disease.
All this with explanation of each benefit on Authority Nutrition.

I have read about all the different kinds of intermittent fasting you can do...I have in mind what I would like to do, but am not for certain. This may be a thing of trial and error. I would love to commit the month of January to intermittent fasting, but right now let's just focus on Tuesday January 3 through Sunday January 8. ;)

As you can see, both keto diet and intermittent fasting have extreme health benefits. In addition, weight loss is a side effect. I am excited and do need weight loss, but I don't want to get so caught up with numbers on a scale. The goal is health. Real, true inside-out health and healing.

Exercise. I have not been to body pump since November. I first missed because I was sick, then the kids, then babysitting, then scouts, then I just didn't feel like it. With the holidays, we have been extra busy. But I do have weights at home. Ugh. But I paid for my gym membership through April! I would love to get back in the gym. Life is hectic with work, college, kids and all their activities, but the goal I am aiming for is...working out 5 days a week. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I CAN DO THIS!

On the spiritual front, the goal is to have God time every day. Perhaps waking up a bit earlier. I desperately need more alone time with Him. Mornings are hard for me, but it seems the more the day goes on, the more excuses I come up with.

On the mental/emotional: Learning to stop saying "I'm sorry" for every little thing. (Of course I am not talking about if I did something wrong and need to apologize, then of course I will!) Going to work on putting a positive spin on things...on situations and incidences...and not be so hard on myself for falling short.

I think that is it for now. I plan to update regularly throughout the month. I took measurements tonight, so will be tracking that. Hold me accountable, folks.

Thanks for reading this novel! :-p 

New Years Eve 2016

New Years Eve 
Saturday December 31st, 2016

We started off the evening at church. I volunteered at the New Here Booth for the 5 o'clock service. Zeke stayed home and slept because he went to a sleepover the night before and they stayed up all night. He was quite exhausted! We got to babysit my co-worker's daughter, Amarrah, overnight. She is such a good baby and it's a nice treat for Macie who desperately wants a sister. 

I made supper, we had a few decorations and a couple of board games. Zeke had a hard time staying awake, as did Asher. Macie outlasted them all. She and I played Chutes and Ladders - she won. We also played Are You Smarter Than A 5th Grader and I won. Macie fell asleep shortly after. By 11, everyone was asleep so I washed dishes then went off to bed myself. Haha.

This year is THE YEAR, folks. Ain't no way around it. Big and wonderful changes WILL take place. The impossible is possible in 2017. ;)

Happy New Year, y'all!