It scares me how easily out of breathe I can get.
Going up stairs, walking around around the house doing things, going on the trampoline for only minutes, walking --- it's scary.
It is not a surprise how badly I've gotten out of shape. I'm the heaviest I've been. And though I can blame it on my slew of health conditions (not having a thyroid due to thyroid cancer, premature ovarian failure and having to be on HRT for that), the truth is I've not been doing my part to be the best version of myself.
Physically, mentally, spiritually --- I'm fading slowly.
I remember thinking, if only I could get some time off from work to refocus on health and giving my all to attaining it. But we don't live in such a world where we can abandon things like earning a paycheck and paying bills. I have children dependent on me - which is exactly why action needs to be taken.
I'm on week three or four of working from home due to the Coronavirus outbreak. Although I'm working 8+ hours a day, still, it's amazing the extra time I have. I have started to contemplate how this may be a blessing in disguise; to focus on health.
My goal for the month of April is to walk 2 miles a day/or walk for 30 minutes straight. I've been doing just that with watching Leslie Sansone fitness videos on YouTube. I'm contemplating adding additional workouts because, after all, I do just sit at a desk for work. Nicht gut.
Growing up, I didn't have a weight issue. This is something that has only developed in my adulthood and has slowly worsened every year. I don't want to live with the feelings of energy and confidance being a thing of the past. I want that in the present. I'm also increasingly disheartened by how easily discouraged I become. The mental aspect of my struggle is real, and my self-control is real small.
God has saved me from cancer.
God has saved me from abuse.
God has saved my life over and over again.
What am I doing with this life that He's given me?
Times are certainly scary, and I do hope to write more about the specifics, but for now I want to focus on the one thing I've been given --- which is a blessing --- and that is time; time to devote to prayer, exercise and health.
