Sunday, July 24, 2016

It is hard not to be a man hater right not be a cynic right now.

Once I start allowing myself to feel comfortable around him, once I start to like him, he stops liking me, he is done with me. And "he" always handles the situation poorly. Be a man, say what you're thinking instead of avoiding it; instead of acting like you never knew me.

My heart is left broken and I am angered.

And I realize my emotional and spiritual health affects my physical and so this is something I need to get a hold of. I don't trust anyone! I don't believe anyone! And the second I start to let my wall down, they're done with me. I feel the tears coming now as I replay conversations we had. But hey! Whatever, he's good to move on. Good for him.

Lord help me.

4th of July 2016

Monday July 4, 2016

My kiddos, Nichole's three and Fallon's two girls. 
Second pool we went to; someone pooped in the first one! 

Zeke got super sun burnt. He went to a pool party Saturday and then on the 4th...he was in a lot of pain. I felt so bad for him. He passed out early (for him) that night.


We spent the day with Nichole and Fallon and their kiddos. We went to (two) pools, cooked out at Nichole's. They went to see the fireworks but we watched from our apartment because Zeke didn't feel good from being so sun burnt.